I failed

So, I failed at blogging. My life got a little more hectic then usual so I failed. However, I now have it scheduled to blog...how sad and neurotic is that. Wake up, work out, eat, apply for jobs, work, blog, rinse and repeat. We will see how this goes. Here's hoping.

Recovery

I am in my first recovery week. I did it! I am excited I have actually done three weeks! I look forward to seeing my body change! My goal is to also stretch EVERY single night....I can't even touch my toes...so this is going to be a really big challenge for me. I might have to go get a stretch rope to help me out, but I WILL be able to bend my body in half....(eventually).

Bad Blogger

I am a bad blogger. I said I would be a good blogger but I am a bad blogger:(. I will try to be better.
So recently I have started p90x. I want to get in great shape and figured I had nothing to loose. The program is pretty hardcore. However, I am not as exhausted as I thought I would be. I am in love with Tony Horton. He seriously has me swooning. He is engaging and funny. I do not mind pressing play because he makes the workouts go by fast. Plus, I LOVE the countdown tracker! Anyone who knows me knows that I am seriously obsessed with time. I just like to know how much longer I have.
Still applying to jobs. It is so discouraging. People say the believe in you and say "the right job will come along", but that is easy for them to say...they have a job. I found one I am pretty excited about. We will see how that pans out. It would require me moving to North Carolina, but if it is something I have to do...it is something I have to do. My parents don't want me togo...I don't really want to go either....but no one is helping me in Southern California, so it looks like a move is in my future.

Tired

I am exhausted. I have developed insomnia. I am tired all the time but can NEVER fall asleep. I really wish I could. I am walking around like a zombie 24/7. I think I need to get back into hardcore exercise...that was the only time I could remember that I was full of energy! I am just exhausted thinking about starting...:(

Post Bunny Fun

So, I had a very fun and oh so non-traditional Easter. I took a hike with my cousin which was fine despite her getting injured:(. My weekend was fairly chill. Pilates and Tv seemed to be the theme. I have to get back into reading. I love reading, but have found myself to tired to read when I get home...sad. I am super stoked that half of the workout dvd's I purchased are coming today (Tracey Anderson). I hope I actually stick to them. My goal is to do both today when I get home. That will bring my night to about 8 pm. Since I have been going to bed at this time...I am going to have to retrain my brain to staying up later.

Stalking and Skipping

So, day two and I actually am writing. Amazing on so many levels. I went to pilates today which always makes my heart happy and my booty sore. I love pilates. I love my teacher. She is awesome and so inspirational. If you ever want to take a truly amazing class with an amazing woman let me know. Volunteered today. Love that school. The teachers are so dedicated and amazing and the kids are exceptional. I love how sweet and excepting they are. I also went to the gym with my father. I love doing this. Today, I decided to try the Tracey Anderson (modified) workout on the treadmill. I probably looked like a complete idiot skipping and bouncing...but I actually had a lot of fun AND the time FLEW by. I am going to buy her webisodes to kick my booty into shape.

This was my fourth day in a row seeing John C Riley during the day. Now, I know he lives in Pasadena...but I have only ran into him once. Now for the fourth day in a row he is everywhere I turn. If this pattern continues I may have to get a restraining order. At the Harveys now. P and L are outside enjoying the crisp air and Miss C is doing her homework diligently upstairs in order to watch American Idol at 8 (ah to be 14 again). I am off to cook a fabulous well balanced dinner for the bunch followed by my own dinner and possibly watching Red Dragon...just a typical night for me.

A New Beginning

So, I have tried many times to write in journals and blogs. However, I always get lazy and get distracted. This blog I am determined to keep up. I have discovered that writing is my therapy. Writing is my security blanket. It calms me when I am nervous and frees me when I am angry. I am by no means a Hemingway, but I am not trying to be. Today is a new day. I woke up with the odd sensation that today was going to be the start of something new. I feel that this song best describes how I woke up this morning. It is taken from Beauty and the Beast: the Musical.


There's been a change in me
A kind of moving on
Though what I used to be
I still depend upon
For now I realize
That good can come from bad
That may not make me wise
But oh it makes me glad
And I-- I never thought I'd leave behind
My childhood dreams
But I don't mind
For now I love the world I see
No change of heart a change in me
For in my dark despair
I slowly understood
My perfect world out there
Had disappeared for good
But in it's place I feel
A truer life begin
And it's so good and real
It must come from within
And I-- I never thought I'd leave behind
My childhood dreams but I don't mind
I'm where and who I want to be
No change of heart
A change in me
No change of heart
A change in me

I am committed to this blog and to changing my whole self (mind, body, spirit). I look forward to the future no matter how long that may be. So, I will write (almost) everyday about everything: my day, exercise, diet, thoughts, political stance, pictures, questions, etc. A bunch of mindless babbling to be exact. I hope you enjoy this journey I am about to embark on. Cheers to the future!

xoxo,

Me